08:27 pm - new lj

i'm one of those people, who change lj's because they get tired of the name and aren't afraid of the dedicated switching over ness involved.

new lj, which hasn't been totally revamped yet but is still there: saving_vic


add me bizzatches or i'll be forced to add you myself.

07:20 pm

so i said, 'JUST BECAUSE YOU DID IT WHEN YOU WERE A LITTLE GIRL, DOESN'T MEAN I HAVE TO!'
and my mum said, 'what?'
and by that time i had fully woken up and so i said, 'i don't know.'


she's been laughing about it since yesterday and using it when there are silences in her conversations.


Emma just told me to say something about her.
so here goes:

Emma is crazy and nights are fun when we work together. i shall sorely miss her. especially when Emily and I torture the new pages in her honour. [Emma says especially the troll head girl]

07:11 pm - a machetti ate my hair

i forgot to mention earlier.... monday's hair dye job cma eout fan-bloody-tastic.

and then i wanted to trim my bangs.
so i did.
then i wanted to just....snip it up a notch.
so i did.
then i wanted to use those cool scissors with the spaces on the blades.
so i did.
then i wanted to start cutting my hair randomly.
so i did.

this is what i came up with.

                     
                          ( snip snip )

et voila. home hair cut gone fabulously right.
although i'm still flipping between feeling like Audrey Hepburn and Mia Farrow in Rosemary's Baby.

Current Mood: chipper

12:35 pm - can anybody hear me?

sitting here in the adult library
i have nine minutes left on my session
but i still have 25 minutes til my mum goes on lunch
i'm waiting for her so we can go dress shopping
and then i can go shopping myself

i spent the morning at the art gallery
i think i look dolled up today
i'm even in some kitten heels

i saw Meggie and April on their lunch today
i was heading in the library
and heard someone call my name
i saw it was them and rushed right over
atleast as fast as my heels would let me

i wish i had brought my journal
or one of my books
i'm in such a weird mood today
and wish i had my journal

and for some weird reason
this entire entry is playing like a song in my head
to a beat like in a Pink song

i miss my friends so much
i don't see them enough
i miss Justin even more
i think we're getting back together
him and face broke up
and he wants me back
and i want him back too
i could care less if i'm being a fool.

Current Mood: weird

03:57 pm - ACK! SHE BUUUUURNSSSS

so, Katelynn and I just spent a few minutes, suffocating in our bathroom, dying my hair. it will soon be sable cove.


oh and i did upload some camping pics.

             

( camping pics )

Current Mood: artistic

12:46 pm - ain't love grand

um, let's see.

today is monday.
i have nothing to do since Sam never called me back about going to Toronto today.
I think I might paint.
do a black and white number.
who knows.

anyone want to do something?
i'd greatly appreciate it.
why did two of my best friends have to go away this week?
why couldn't they have gone last week when i was gone too?
sheesh.

i think i might try and pry kate out of his room and go shopping at shopper's.
maybe i'll dye my hair spur of ze moment @.@

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Current Mood: bored

09:28 pm - love....

i have just found another example of guys leading girls on and then dropping them. it pisses me off. i mean, it'd probably piss me off even if the girls weren't my friends.

if you tell someone you love them, you should mean it. don't tell them you love them and then after they do something to be with you, don't tell them you don't anymore. what the hell is the matter with you?

love is something that can't just be revoked. it's something that works up in you until you just burst with it about somebody. you can't just get over it. you can't just push it down. you can't ignore it. you can't use it to your advantage.

you shouldn't just throw 'i love you' around when you think you feel it for somebody. you can't just say it to somebody seriously and then take it back because you don't want to anymore.

you just can't toy with someone's emotions like that. it's wrong. to throw such a strong emotion into the act.....i feel sorry for anyone who has had to go through it.


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i think, deep down, i wish for a fairy tale ending. the whole, knight in shining armour, white steed and a glowing sunset to ride into. i've always been partial to princess stories.


i do always fall so fast into love. i can fall just as quickly out of it.

i do guard my heart. i love and wish to be loved, but am wary of those offering it. aside from family that is.

i know what it's like to have my heart broken. maybe i do hide. but so far, i've found when i do venture out, i have to hide again to lick my wounds.


true love are words i cherish.
if only i could find it.

Current Mood: thoughtful

05:59 pm - ex-girlfriend

god.

i hate boys who will do things with you, friends with benefits if you will, but will basically lead you up to believe that they are going to ask you out and then don't. you hsouldn't fool around like that with someone. everybody has a bloody heart you have to think about. i mean, yeah, a kiss is fine. no harm in a kiss. but if you go so far and then decide you just want to be friends.....assholes. atleast establish in the beginning that you don't want a relationship, you just want some fun. don't go bringing them in and then dropping them. god.


and no, this didn't happen to me. i'm just pissed off about it. as far as i'm concerned at the moment, i'm having a perfectly fine love life which should be getting even better in a week or so.

it has been such a long while since i last ranted. i think i need a rant. about something. anything. i can't think of anything. i'm just too peaceful. i should change that.

Current Mood: bouncy

08:55 pm - quotes from camping

Peter: Jesus loves you!
me: Jesus doesn't love me because I tried to take over heaven.

Mason: so i went in to buy some but the lady was like, 'oooh i'm not falling for you being over the age for drinking' and she laughs and so i laughed and was like,' too bad i'm TWO YEARS OVER MOTHA FUCKAAAAAA!!!' *whips out invisible ID and his middle finger*

Mason: what's it called when you bluff someone?
Jason: bluffing someone?
me: it's called 'fucking you over.'

Peter: the captain's going around in circles.
me: clockwise or counter clockwise?

Mason: what gym are YOU going to?

Jason: i got totally spanked in poker by her...
me: I WIN!!!....I SWEAR i've never played Texas Hold'em before *grins behind her mountain of poker chips*


Peter: to get a lovely smile for pictures, think of sex.

me: can i drive? i'm legal.

me: i guess i hsould have brought a bra camping...
Sarah: i'd let you borrow one of mine but.......yeah.




fresh aire gets to me. it makes me tired.
i have a shit load of laundry to do.
i brought the bare minimum of clothing. maybe not even since i didn't bring any bras.
i figured i'd use bathing suits as underwear.
we met four lovely boys who were very amusing.
i ate lots of marshmellows.
i swam a lot.
i collected almost a bucketful of rocks.
i love my rocks.
i used up one page of my sketchbook.
i read two and a half books.
i swam at the bottom of a waterfall.
i also climbed part of it.
i took lots of pictures.
82 to be exact.
it's gonna be hell sending them all to Kate and Sarah
i'm not even going to try and load them onto photobucket.
it just takes too long.
sometime during the week i regained my appetite.
i still haven't found out my blood test results
nor has my G1 come in the mail yet.
dammit.

tomorrow we're going dress shopping for the wedding.
i need cell minutes.
monday i might go up to Toronto avec Sam, Katelynn and possibly Caroline.
i need to call Sam.
possibly my dad.
um.
Meggie said on tuesday she'd come visit me at work.
yay!
what else?
no clue.
nighters.

Current Mood: tired

09:05 pm - in a gadda da vidda

today was fun.
but my feet hurt.
Sarah and I manged to get on Tomb Raider, the Italian Job, Skyrider and Vortex.
i bought 3 shirts at Vaughan Mills.
and i didn't find the store Jenna said was with her style because of our time limit.



we're going camping tomorrow until saturday.
i don't really feel like going all the way up to Arrowhead
but i'll make the best of it.


i think i might go outside and read.






i think i really am a hopeless romantic deep down inside no matter how pessimistic i may be and try to convinve myself i am not.

Current Mood: thoughtful

05:45 pm - toys r us

Sam and I.....
we were crazy.


last night, Sam picked me up from my gram's house and we went to Putting Edge, the cool kids we are, then after went to Denny's.
she let me drive around the Toys R Us parking lot.
i need to work on braking when turning apparently.
and that's as far as i'm going.

after the rest of the events of the night, she came back home with me and slept over.
she made me get up at 11.

then we got a game plan for the day and started. Sarah came with us.
first we went to Canadian Tire since Justin was working and I had to tell him something. he said that he had lunch at 2.30. then we went to Sobey's to see Caroline. she said she got off work at 2.30. so we asked if she wanted to come shopping with us.

so the plan was, at 2.30 to swing by Canadian Tire, pick Justin up, grab Caroline at Sobey's, grab food, drop Justin back off then go to the mall.

it didn't really work like that.

Justin instead took his lunch at 2 and so we caught him when we came back for gas, then sat with him during his lunch, then Caroline called us [as she said she would], went and picked her up, went to her house, let her get all shop ready, then drove to the mall.

i'm tired now.
Sam and Caroline are also coming over around 7 ish and we're going to watch A Series of Unfortunate Events and Shrek 2, which they just rented, so Sam said when she just called me.
then at 7.30 ish I MUST call Wiz. she's getting back tonight and I MUST speak with her. i miss her.

and let's see.
tomorrow in ze morning, Kate, Sarah and i are going to Wonderland, then mum and Mike are picking us up and we're going shopping at Vaughan Mills for dresses for the wedding and possibly other things.

then we're going camping tues-sat.
i'm actually not really looking forward to it.
just because there's a fire ban and whatnot.
everything's just so crazy right now, i don't want to go away for a few days and be totally out of the loop.
and on the day i get back, i think two of my friends are LEAVING for a week -.-

*sigh*

oh, last night, my dad, amazingly, let me drive his truck for a couple streets. total suburbian streets, but streets none the same. it was awesome.

Current Mood: tired

05:07 pm - my greatest accomplishment.

07:03 pm - then he ate my boy entrancers.

SO

nothing INCREDIBLE new to report.
i'm at work.
and i'm wearing new shoes.
new shoes that i bought on my dinner.
i actually bought three pairs of shoes.
shoes are one my fetishes
and they make me quite pleasantly happy
along with jeans and hats.

it's 7.10 and all is somewhat well.
i just spent an hour on desk avec Agnes
whom i talked via internet messenger with even though she was right beside me.
i'm supposed to be on books away right now.
Janet had originally put me on desk again with Agnes because of the book reports happening but then put me on books away in false hopes of ANY books coming back tonight.
there are no books to be put away.
we children's library pages are just too efficient.
that's why they should hire boys down here.
boys= distractions = more books to be put away = things for us to do
et VOILA!!
solution to all our problems.



ALSO, Justin came in to see me.
atleast somebody cares XP

08:51 pm

http://www.play-analogia.com/cgi-bin/index/u/

if you upload a photo on that site, it will come up with three different celebs you look like.

my number 1 is Demi Moore
2 is Clea Duvall [whoever she is]
3 is Yasmee Gauri [again, whoever she is]

now it's saying i look
1 like Clea Duvall
2 Alessandra Ambrosio
3 Jessica Alba

who the hell is Clea Duvall??!!

08:05 pm - you are not a duck.

um.......
so since around five, when i put down my book because it was starting to fall over because i was starting to fall asleep while reading it, i've been sleeping on and off.
but then my dad called around 7.40 ish and now i can't remember whether or not i went back to sleep or not.
i'm guessing i didn't because i'm on the internet right this instant.
....i don't think that makes sense...
oh well.

today was very exciting.
i got my G1.
and only got three questions wrong on the test i'm pretty sure i got in december.
woot.
and i convinced mum to let me drive around teh Swiss Chalet parking lot.
doulbe woot.
plus i went into Curry's Art Store while she and pop went into Party Giant.
i got this huge-ass sketchbook for 9 dollars.
i was utterly shocked.
plus i got another sketchbook,
two tubes of paint [also on sale]
and an art book.


the only people in the house is myself...
and dodie.
for some unknown reason, which i did not expect, dodie totally accepted my excuse of losing my appetite.
you even said these things happen.
i'm wondering if it had anything to do with me munching on a piece of toblerone while she was saying it.


oh, last night, i went to the movies with Justin, Jeff, Tammy, Char, Jon Frances, Andrew and Tyler. the last three whom i had never met before. or atleast i had thought i'd never met before. -.- . anyways, hwole point of the matter is they were all jerks and made everyone want to punch them in the faces.
we saw Mr and Mrs. Smith. it was good but i wouldn't see it again.
well i would but not totally willingly...
you know what i mean.
after the movie, we all went to Tim Horton's. this is where hte main wanting-to-smash-their-faces-in component mainly comes in [i know i'm violent.]
and then everybody but the 3 not-so-funny stoodges drove to Jeff's house.
and then after Tammy and Char left, me, Jeff and Justin drove to the gas station for fear of running out of gas and then to McDonald's.
that part was fun.


according to a quiz, i am Arthur, king of the Britons.

Current Mood: weird

11:07 am - i love you i love you i love you

i made the big mistake of staying up late last night
especially since i basically died this morning when being forced out of bed.
i tried to convince my mum i wasn't going to work today but she didn't believe it.
this afternoon i get to be in a program.
Fairy Tales Gone Wild
now that's a program i can sink my teeth into.
i think my hair is very pouffy.
i'm not sure since i haven't looked in a mirror since 8.30 ish and proceeded to fix my wet hair at work.
i'm on shelf reading this hour
then lunch next hour i'm assuming.
i was just on desk and it was crazy busy.
it made me want to die all over again.
or atleast curl up in a corner and sleep.
i'd like that aussi.

last night around 9.30, Justin ended up calling me.
ten minutes later he showed up at my house and we drove over to his babcia's to go swimming.
i thought the water was warm.
oh but was i wrong.
i had to be home by 11 though.
so he walked me home and then we sat on my porch for about ten minutes with the cat next door.

today i found out that said cat eats the birds.
i was horrified and embarassed to be in association with said cat.

the end.

Current Mood: chipper

07:08 pm - yeah i'm sad when i'm on my own.

today was fun.
i went to ze mall avec Justin and dragged him around shopping.
my sandals broke. the jesus boots are dead :(
luckily i had just bought a pair of ultra nifty shoes.
unluckily heels and my jean capris don't really match.
today was Justin's first time in a photo booth.
Justin also bought me dinner.
whadda sweetie.


i've been playing sims2 when for some reason the game zoomed down to my task bar.
weird yes?
so i thought i should do a lil'internet hopping before going on to continue my family.
i HAD a family all made.
then i deleted them to start over.
i'm weird.

i wish i could go to Wonderland with Tammy on Weds.
damn art galleryness.
and i have to work tomorrow.
come visit me people.
i get bored easily in children's.

07:07 pm - to pierce or not to pierce

at dinner an interesting topic came up.
piercings.
and i now think that if i go to the mall tomorrow, i might go get my ears pierced.
i have no piercings in my ears whatsoever right now.
i've always had this little phobia of holes through my skin with something sticking through it.
i think i'm over it now.
i've always been jealous of the girls who got to wear the big dangly earrings
or the earring with the feathers or beads.
i want to be one of those girls.
so i think i'm going to go get my ears pierced.
Kate and Nikki are probably going to the mall
and Kate said i could come too.
Sarah's also going.
they said they'd come with me.
i said i'd go get that freezing stuff first.
no matter what they say, i still believe it's going to hurt.
Sarah told me to go to Vissage.
sure, why not.
i'm still not entirely sure though.
i mean, i want pierced ears
but then i don't.
i'm confused.

08:22 pm - underwater.

i should be at a cabin right now.
i'm not.
i should be munching on hot dogs and burnt marshmellows right about now.
but i'm not.
why you may ask?
because my mother decided this morning that she didn't want me going afterall, whether or not she told me i oculd make my own decision about it yesterday.
all because Justin was going.
i was super pissed.

when Justin called later that day i told him the bad news.
apparently Tammy couldn't come either.
so him and Jeff didn't end up going either.

now he was pissed.

anyways, i'm in a somewhat better mood. still slipping in sarcasm remarks about the cabin to mum. she says she doesn't fell guilty about not letting me go though so i don't think the remarks are achieving what i had hoped for.


Kate and I are going to go see Willy Wonka at 9.30 at Famous.
Sarah was invited but she didn't want to pay to see it again.
movie night in canada eh.

tomorrow might be a blah day.
Justin and I might hang out.
who knows if we're even allowed hanging out anymore.
it's ludacris i tell you.
*sigh*
maybe i'll take Sarah to the mall tomorrow for plan b.
who knows.

adios.

Current Mood: calm

09:19 pm - BLOODY HELL

see,

i told mum that's Jeff's mum was coming with us.
really she isn't.
my mum then decided about half an hour ago that she wanted Jeff's number to call his mum, thank her for letting me come with them and if there was anything she wanted her to send with me for dinners.

i told her i didn't have Jeff's number.
i really do.
after she left, i looked at Kate and she looked at me.
the only thing to run through my mind was "fuck".

i then called Justin and told him.
i asked him if Jeff's mum would ever lie for us.
i asked if we could bribe her.
he then called Tammy's cell to get Jeff.
and then he called me back to tell me Tammy hadn't taken her cell.
he said that he'd talk to Jeff tomorrow and see then call me straight afterwards.
if his mum won't be on our side, then i'm just going to tell my mum his parents decided last minute we couldn't go.


this.sucks.

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